I’ve been feeling vaguely dissatisfied with… well, everything. With the exception of a few things, I feel stuck. I need a thing, and I can’t figure out what that thing is. After I complained about this for half an hour at therapy, my therapist said, “Yes, that’s exactly what’s happening. This is like you’re standing outside in the cold without a jacket and saying, ‘I’m cold.’ Of course you’re cold! It’s cold out! You need to put on a jacket!”
So, folks, sorry if I take this metaphor too far, but I need me a damn jacket. I feel like I’m on the edge of something big, like all of this falling apart/lack of excitement/falling-through of life plans has to be happening because something else is underway. Something big this way comes, you know? Please?
Here’s what I’m trying to do: open myself up to the possibilities. I’m trying to keep an ear out for anything that makes me flutter, anything that piques my interest. I’m trying to find something I can invest in and not take no for an answer. And I’m not quite rich enough to throw caution into the wind, but I’m saving up, and I hope that something exciting presents itself. You hear me, Universe? Present something!
Back to your regularly scheduled, less angsty posting tomorrow.
Have you found yourself on the edge of Greatness/Failure? How do you recognize it? What would you do?